We are sorry to hear of your difficult experiences with contraception.
There is a halachic value placed on sexual relations on mikveh night. Halacha also supports sexual intimacy within marriage, and a combination of
hilchot niddah and Natural Family Planning can greatly reduce the time-frame during which relations can take place.
However, when contraceptive use is permitted and both spouses agree, it is halachically permissible to abstain from relations, even on mikveh night, in accordance with this method. Please see our site's article on the
Fertility Awareness Method (FAM), which is a form of natural family planning.
Please note that the
diaphragm with spermicide is highly effective, and usually considered more effective than FAM. Many couples have success using a combination of both approaches: FAM to isolate the most fertile days, on which the couple abstain, and a diaphragm to provide backup contraception on other days.